The Autobiography of Gucci Mane

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Mane, Gucci
Martinez-Belkin, Neil

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The New York Times bestselling memoir from the legendary Gucci Mane spares no detail in this "cautionary tale that ends in triumph" (GQ). For the first time Gucci Mane tells his extraordinary story in his own words. It is "as wild, unpredictable, and fascinating as the man himself" (Complex). The platinum-selling recording artist began writing his remarkable autobiography in a federal maximum security prison. Released in 2016, he emerged radically transformed. He was sober, smiling, focused, and positive—a far cry from the Gucci Mane of years past. A critically acclaimed classic, The Autobiography of Gucci Mane "provides incredible insight into one of the most influential rappers of the last decade, detailing a volatile and fascinating life...By the end, every reader will have a greater understanding of Gucci Mane, the man and the musician" (Pitchfork).

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2017

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This New York Times -bestselling memoir from the legendary rapper and trap music pioneer spares no detail in this "cautionary tale that ends in triumph" ( GQ ). Radric Delantic Davis, aka Gucci Mane, began writing his autobiography in a federal maximum security prison. Released in 2016, he emerged radically transformed. He was sober, smiling, focused, and positive--a far cry from the Gucci Mane of years past. Now the rapper, record executive, and entrepreneur tells his extraordinary story in his own words. It is "as wild, unpredictable, and fascinating as the man himself" ( Complex ).A critically acclaimed classic, The Autobiography of Gucci Mane "provides incredible insight into one of the most influential rappers of the last decade, detailing a volatile and fascinating life . . . By the end, every reader will have a greater understanding of Gucci Mane, the man and the musician" ( Pitchfork ).

Reviews (4)

School Library Journal Review

Atlanta has always played a significant role in shaping the sound and culture of rap and hip-hop, and the influence of Gucci Mane (né Radric Davis) can't be overstated. But he almost didn't get to experience the success because of his frequent stints in jail. Most recently released in 2016, Gucci Mane has been on a tear since then, putting out albums and mixtapes and collaborating with others. This autobiography, written while he was serving time in a federal prison for possession of a firearm, paints a rich portrait. Gucci Mane was born in rural Alabama. As a young teen from very limited means, he began petty drug dealing and moved on to bigger deals to earn money fast. In 2001, he met record producer Zaytoven (with whom he still works) and music became his passion even as the drug dealing greatly funded it. Gucci Mane briefly discusses how he was accused of murder in 2005 (which was ruled an act of self-defense) but is very frank about his use of lean (a mix of prescription cough syrup, soft drinks, and fruit-flavored candy) and the tolls of addiction. Several full-color photographs enhance the stories. The book name drops frequently, as Gucci Mane has influenced and worked with almost every rapper out of Atlanta in the last decade. VERDICT An engaging addition for fans of the artist or music lovers in general.-Jamie Watson, Baltimore County Public Library © Copyright 2018. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

Publisher's Weekly Review

East Atlanta hip-hop innovator Gucci Mane (né Radric Delantic Davis) delivers a tell-all of his checkered childhood and career. Born in rural Alabama to a drug-addicted hustler father and single mother, Gucci Mane began selling drugs by the seventh grade and rapping by age 14. Over the next two decades, he cycled through jail-including a three-year stint in federal prison-and rehabilitation facilities after numerous drug- and firearm-related offenses, and still released eight studio albums and dozens of mixtapes, formed his own record label, and worked with some of rap's top names. All the while, he groomed Atlanta's up-and-coming artists, as well as polishing his own free-associating lyrical style at "a pace that few could match." Gucci Mane is unflinching in his recounting of his life's lowest moments and refreshingly blunt about his relationships with rival Young Jeezy ("The vibe was fucked.... It was no longer a business situation to sort out. It had become personal") and erstwhile protégé Waka Flocka Flame ("Waka and I had been having problems on and off for three years. But we'd been able to keep it between us"); however, he tends to get, as he would put it, "lost in the sauce" when naming friends and enemies or describing his time as a "studio rat." Yet the story he spins is riveting, filled with music-world intrigue and inner-city shootouts and buoyed by a self-awareness not marred by ego. (Sept.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

New York Review of Books Review

LOU REED HAD a mordant wit and a pragmatic understanding of his own legacy. When an interviewer in 1992 suggested that radio stations might play Reed's new song "Cremation" as a tribute after he died, the musician responded dryly - and accurately - "When 1 die, they'll play 'Walk on the Wild Side.' " "Walk on the Wild Side" was the 1972 hit that propelled the underground New York musical adventurer to global rock star status. Had Reed been merely a one-hit wonder, as his reply implied, that one hit still would have made him a worthy subject for a biography (if not for the five published so far). "Walk on the Wild Side" is the kind of fourminute composition that transforms culture. Its central figures, including the transgender actors Candy Darling, Jackie Curtis and Holly Woodlawn, are people Reed met during the years when his group the Velvet Underground was the house band at Andy Warhol's Factory. The song transplanted the gender pioneers of Manhattan's gay bars to America's car radios and assured them a place in pop history decades before "Transparent" and "Orange Is the New Black." With just that song - let alone "Sweet Jane" or "Street Hassle" or "Pale Blue Eyes" or "Legendary Hearts" or "Satellite of Love" or "Halloween Parade," or any of his dozens of other truly great compositions - Reed enacted his oft-stated belief that, as Anthony DeCurtis tells it, rock 'n' roll could be "as transporting and lyrical as any other art form, that it could speak directly to the heart with incandescent power." If the goal of a biography is to bring its subject back to life, LOU REED: A Life (Little, Brown, $32), DeCurtis'S sympathetic but never fawning book, succeeds. Reed (who died in 2013) was a notoriously difficult man, and he hated most journalists. But DeCurtis - a longtime Rolling Stone contributor and the co-writer of Clive Davis's autobiography - was one of a handful the university-trained poet trusted, as DeCurtis rather immodestly notes in his introduction. Lewis Allan Reed was born in Brooklyn in 1942 to an accountant and housewife, and, after the family moved 10 years later, he spent the second decade of his life in a secular Jewish household on suburban Long Island. As a teenager he endured electroshock therapy when his parents tried to break him out of what they saw as a dangerous psychological decline: not just depression, but depression complicated by feelings of sexual desire that were not acceptable in Eisenhower's America. Reed never got over the pain sanctioned by those meant to protect him. Although DeCurtis suggests that the songwriter may have exaggerated gay mannerisms as a sort of rebellious affectation, this book captures how deeply ingrained into Reed's psyche an understanding of sexual dysphoria, if not sexual dysphoria itself, was. More than a voyeur of Manhattan's sexual demimondes, this former student of the poet Delmore Schwartz lived the life of which he sang on such albums as "Transformer." For a few years his love and his muse was a male-to-female striver named Rachel. As DeCurtis writes, "It's impossible to conceive of another highly visible star of Reed's stature openly presenting a transsexual as his significant other at that time." Unfortunately, DeCurtis doesn't really explain how the relationship ended, or why Reed subsequently went straight, except to note that in Laurie Anderson, his last partner, the strong-minded musician met his match. Carefully researched and thoughtfully written, "Lou Reed: A Life" is the best Reed biography to date and probably its author's greatest achievement. For all that it faithfully chronicles its subject's disruption and transgression, though, it fails to puncture its own reasoned veneer - DeCurtis doesn't so much walk on the wild side as respectfully observe it from across the street. It seems like a lack of imagination on the part of the publishing industry that only white men are apparently exhuming Reed's complicated corpus. I, for one, would love to read a black woman writing about the man who sang about "the colored girls" singing. Or I would settle for Deborah Sprague. Sprague is a veteran music journalist I met back when she was a he: David Sprague, an editor at the seminal rock magazine Creem in the late 1980s. In a moving essay in woman walk the line: How the Women in Country Music Changed Our Lives (University of Texas, $24.95), an anthology edited by Holly Gleason, Sprague describes how Rosanne Cash helped the writer through her own transition from male to female. The singer-songwriter guided her by the example of her life: Cash had to overcome the expectations of springing from a storied musical family to establish her own identity; Sprague blasted past the expectations of growing up with a single mom in a "working-class, inner-city neighborhood." Rosanne's music expressed Deborah's own emotional journey: Of her album "The List," Sprague writes, "Less like gravestones than musical equivalents of the stations of the cross, these pieces served as places to stop and reflect, and to gain strength through that meditation." Finally, Cash touched Sprague - literally - during their professional interactions. Noticing they were wearing the same nail polish, the subject grabbed the interviewer's hand. At the time, Sprague was only out as a woman on weekends, and the workday maroon decor was a "slip-up" whose revelation caused her momentarily to freeze. But Cash's warmth and directness (she invited Sprague to sit next to her in the interview booth, which "allowed her to be more tactile than I expected") affected the writer deeply. "The thing that really stuck with me," Sprague writes, "was her attitude toward how she was perceived." It's a wonderful, vivid anecdote that captures how writers and musicians can communicate as peers rather than engaging in the kinds of power struggles that characterized Reed's relationships with journalists (particularly the critic Lester Bangs). The 27 essays in "Woman Walk the Line" chronicle this kind of connection. The writers, all women, are musicians (Grace Potter, Taylor Swift), novelists (Alice Randall, Caryn Rose) and, primarily, journalists (Elysa Gardner, Meredith Ochs). Subjects include Maybelle Carter, Dolly Parton, Lucinda Williams and Rhiannon Giddens. These are personal essays about influence and inspiration; accordingly, they can veer into self-indulgence. But at their best, they shine their light on the story and the storyteller equally. Cash lands on both sides of these essays: as muse for Sprague and as acolyte in her moving tribute to June Carter Cash, the country legend who married Rosanne's father, Johnny, and raised Rosanne as one of her own. As the piece explains, June "eliminated confusion by banning the words 'stepchild' and 'stepmother' from her vocabulary, and from ours." There is no more moving evidence of the way in which the daughter of the famous Carter Family was able to assert the primacy of nurture over nature than her daughter Rosanne's eulogy: "She did not give birth to me, but she helped me give birth to my future." A SICK LIFE: TLC 'n Me: Stories From On and Off the Stage (Rodaie, $26.99) begins with a transformation. Tionne Watkins describes how she becomes the performer ?-Boz: "I have a routine I do when I transform into ?-Boz. It's always the same. I look down, rock, pace the floor, and then get really quiet and tune everything out. When I look up, I'm T-Boz." ?-Boz is the T of TLC, the Atlanta trio that was one of the most popular groups of the 1990s. Many performers have a routine like hers, a ritual by which the private person becomes the public persona - Clark Kent turns into Superman. But for Watkins, the split between identities has been firmly and cruelly determined by biology. For her entire life, the singer and dancer has fought sickle-cell disease, a blood disorder that can be crippling and fatal, and in T-Boz's case has meant regular hospitalizations, surgeries, drugs and rest. Stress, fatigue, airplane travel, temperature changes - the daily stuff of being a pop star - are her kryptonite. "A Sick Life" is a chronicle of perseverance. For Watkins, turning into ?-Boz often means jumping out of the frying pan and into the fire - almost literally, at times. TLC, whose No. 1 hits include "Creep," "Waterfalls" and "Unpretty," had a career filled with dramatic incidents, like the time Lisa Lopes burned down the house of her boyfriend, the football star Andre Rison. "When I got the call that she'd been arrested, I wasn't that surprised," Watkins writes. "I'd gotten these kinds of calls before." When Lopes died in a car crash in Honduras, the band's career crashed too, though ?-Boz and Rozonda Thomas (or "Chilli") eventually began making music and performing again. Strangely, Watkins writes a bit about Lopes but hardly at all about Thomas. It's an oddly incomplete memoir. From tales of teenage crimes to her near-death from a brain tumor, "A Sick Life" can be harrowing; Watkins's life makes Reed's walk on the wild side look like a walk in the park. But as a kid trapped in hospital beds, she learned how to cope at an early age: "I didn't feel like I had to be defined by my illness." She managed not only to have a phenomenal career, inspiring millions of young women around the world; she also gave birth, against doctors' predictions. (Nursing, however, literally almost killed her.) "A Sick Life" peddles a lot of positivist clichés: "I believe everything in life happens for a reason" is the first line of the book. But in Watkins's case, the affirmations are well earned. TLC put Atlanta hip-hop on the map, paving the way for a slew of acts, including Gucci Mane. As with ?-Boz, that's a stage name - passed down from his father, as the rapper reveals in THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF GUCCI MANE (Simon & Schuster, $27), written with Neil Martinez-Belkin. But Gucci has an interesting relationship to his "real" self. On his 2009 breakthrough album, he uses his birth name in the title: "The State vs. Radric Davis." As the title implies, that album references Davis's many scrapes with the law, including prison time for drug and weapons crimes, among other things. Most famously, he beat a 2005 murder charge. Thus, Radric Davis is a character in the tales spun by his alter ego Gucci Mane - as well as the person who has authentically lived Gucci's raps about drug deals and lavish lifestyles. Not that this book offers such philosophical self-reflection. Written, judging by its closing chapter, during his three-year stint in the federal penitentiary in Terre Haute, Ind., "The Autobiography of Gucci Mane" is styled as a story of jailhouse redemption; there's a reason its title mirrors "The Autobiography of Malcolm X." "Prison is time," he writes. "I tried to use the time to better myself." But Gucci's a better lyricist than prose stylist, and the knack for vivid details and dizzying turns of phrase that continues to mark him as one of hip-hop's most skilled storytellers (he just scored his biggest hit yet with "I Get the Bag") doesn't materialize in these pages. Nor do he and his cowriter create a propulsive narrative around all the individual stories of mishaps, trap and rap. Repeatedly, the book turns to court documents to explain some of the most controversial moments in his criminal career. Apparently, it's one thing to write rhymes about one's legal odyssey; it's another to write a book. Gucci's not alone. Surprisingly few artists are happy to see their lives truthfully encapsulated between two covers. That's why it's easier to write about someone who has died, like Reed, and why Jimmy McDonough and Stephen Davis are hamstrung in their respective unauthorized biographies of A1 Green and Stevie Nicks. McDonough begins SOUL SURVIVOR: A Biography of AI Green (Da Capo, $28) with an anecdote about how gaining access to the notoriously elusive singer didn't help Davin Seay, the co-writer of Green's autobiography. It may be a telling incident, but narratively it provides a bit of a metatextual stumble. I don't want to read about writing about Green; I want to read about Green. McDonough, who has also written biographies of Neil Young and Russ Meyer, cuts to the chase eventually, though Green remains the hole around which he writes, forcing him to draw on interviews with band members and lovers. Ultimately, the author goes to the reverend's sermons (or sends an assistant) to hear the man talk. The conventional line about Green is that he too went through a transformation, from a secular performer to a man of God. McDonough doesn't quite buy that: "I believe Al's life is far more ambiguous, chaotic and unsettled than the clichéd happy ending usually reported." He also warns that you might not like the protagonist of "Soul Survivor," the man who has been accused of spousal abuse and, McDonough implies, perhaps worse: "There will be those who find the portrait that emerges in these pages somewhat bewildering, even disturbing." Love and happiness indeed. Davis didn't have access to Nicks either; she too is a sometimes mysterious subject around whom, er, rumors (sorry!) tend to fly. But Davis, the author of the infamous Led Zeppelin biography "Hammer of the Gods," doesn't let that stop him from painting a mostly flattering portrait in GOLD DUST WOMAN: The Biography of Stevie Nicks (St. Martin's, $27.99). Nicks, who came to fame as one of the singers of Fleetwood Mac in the 1970s, is an iconic and still active figure whose fan base and influence (on artists from Courtney Love to Taylor Swift) continue to grow. As Davis waggishly writes in the opening scene, describing the 1975 taping of a TV show: "One day in the next century there will be websites devoted to her collection of shawls." If the man whose Led Zeppelin book memorably recounted an incident involving a fish and a groupie would seem an unlikely biographer for one of rock 'n' roll's greatest heroines, fear not: Davis is astute and respectful, almost as adept in his literary analysis as the Ph.D.-wielding University of Pennsylvania lecturer DeCurtis. He calls Nicks "a poet of sometimes exquisite technical skill in terms of cadence and scansion." He is also very receptive to her mystical inclinations (as one might expect from a Zeppelin biographer): "Her vision of the Welsh goddess was numinous - something that could be felt and experienced but not actually seen," he writes, explaining the namesake of Nicks's song "Rhiannon." If in some ways DeCurtis's book offers a portrait of New York, "Gold Dust Woman" is very much a California story. There's Bob Welch, cocaine, Sound City, cocaine, Tom Petty, pot, the Pacific Palisades, cocaine. (Reed's bio might be synopsized as Andy Warhol, heroin, the Factory, heroin, Rachel, amphetamines, Greenwich Village, heroin.) Like "Lou Reed," "Gold Dust Woman" is researched down to the last vocal overdub, sometimes to mind-numbing effect. Davis is ultimately a fan, and the forest fades for the trees. EVELYN MCDONNELL, a longtime music critic, is the author of "Queens of Noise: The Real Story of the Runaways."

Library Journal Review

Hip-hop artist Radric Davis, aka Gucci Mane, was born in Alabama and raised under less than optimal conditions in Atlanta. He culled traits from his alcoholic father and lessons learned from dealing drugs during the height of the crack epidemic, parlaying these experiences into a platinum-selling music career. Known as the Godfather of Trap Music (a subgenre of Southern rap characterized by gritty lyrical content, 808 bass, and synthesizer-heavy beats), he is responsible for some of today's most well-known artists, including Waka Flaka Flame, Migos, and Young Thug. Hampered by poor decision-making, a fractured family, and personal and professional relationships fueled by an addiction to prescription cough syrup, Gucci Mane's career has been a roller coaster of resounding successes and failures all detailed in this self-aware autobiography. The title, written with former XXL Magazine music editor Martinez-Belkin, chronicles Mane's disputes with other Southern rappers, stints in rehab, court cases, and incarcerations. Many in the performer's inner circle believe his erratic behavior goes beyond addiction to undiagnosed bipolar disorder, but he attributes his issues to post-traumatic stress disorder from his environment and upbringing. Verdict Accessible and conversational in tone, this book juxtaposes Gucci's genius and self-destructive tendencies in a way that will elicit responses from ire to empathy. Recommended for rap music scholars and fans of Gucci Mane and trap music.-Tamela Chambers, Chicago Pub. Schs. © Copyright 2017. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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The Autobiography of Gucci Mane PROLOGUE September 13, 2013 The police had taken my pistol the day before but I wasn't without heavy arms. I'd been stockpiling weapons at the studio. Glocks, MAC-10s, ARs fitted with scopes and hundred-round monkey nuts. All out in the open for easy access. I was in Tony Montana mode, bracing for a final standoff. I didn't know when it would happen, who it would be, or what would force its occurrence, but one thing I did know: something bad was going to happen and it was going to happen soon. I looked around my studio. The Brick Factory. It seemed like just yesterday this had been the spot. Everybody would be over here. At all hours of the day for days on end. But now the Brick Factory looked more like an armory than a place where music was made. I'd seen the looks on people's faces when they came through. My studio was no longer a fun place to be. Onetime regulars started dropping like flies until I was the only one left. Alone. Everyone was scared again. Not just scared of what was going on with me but scared of me. Scared to call me. Scared to see me. Keyshia had tried to be a voice of reason. She tried telling me the things I was stressing over weren't as bad as I was making them out to be. That my problems were manageable. That we could figure them out together. But I was too far gone and even Keyshia had her limits. A few days earlier I'd snapped on her and she'd hung up the phone. She'd had enough. A paranoid mess, I went and checked the CCTV monitor for any activity outside. None. The parking lot was empty. The gate was secure. If that brought me any peace of mind, it disappeared as soon as I looked away from the screen, down at my feet. The ankle monitor. I was a sitting duck. Everyone knew I was here. And they knew I couldn't leave. That wasn't entirely true. I wasn't supposed to leave. But I had, the day before, when I'd gone to my lawyer Drew's office and the police got called. They found a loaded .45 next to my belongings. They let me go but took the strap with them to get fingerprinted and turned in to evidence. I knew my days were numbered. I'd violated my house arrest and had a run-in with the law while doing so. Fuck it. If I was going back to jail anyway, I might as well go find these niggas I'd been having problems with. These were my old partners, but things had soured and they'd been sending threats my way. I didn't want to wait until I got out of jail to see if these niggas were about all the shit they'd been talking. We could handle this now. I grabbed a Glock .40, some smoke, and was on my way. During my walk to their spot I'd fallen into something of a trance, mumbling incoherent thoughts to myself as I wandered down Moreland Avenue. But my zombie-like state was interrupted by the red and blue flash of police lights. It immediately put me on high alert. "Hi, Gucci," I heard. "I'm Officer Ivy with the Atlanta Police Department. What's going on?" That was a red flag. No police had ever said "Hi, Gucci" to me like that before. "Is everything okay? Your friends called us. They're worried about you." Red flag number two. My friends were certified Zone 6 street niggas. They ain't the type to call the law. None of this was adding up. Even with codeine and promethazine syrup slowing me down, my heart jumped as I realized what was happening. Or what I thought was happening. This man was no cop. I knew niggas who did this. They'd dress up in police uniforms, get a kit put on their Dodge Chargers, and pull someone over, impersonating police. They'd tell them it was a routine traffic stop and before they knew it they were tied up in the trunk of their own car. "Gucci, do you have any sort of weapon on you right now?" "I do got a weapon," I barked back, pointing to the Glock bulging out of my jean pocket. "Don't unholster yours. I ain't surrendering nothing until you prove you're for real. Call for backup." More officers arrived on scene but that didn't calm me. The standoff continued. When I told them I'd shoot 'em up if they touched me, they moved in and took me down, arresting me for disorderly conduct. After they found the gun and weed, more charges would follow. Cuffed or not, I wasn't done fighting. I yelled, spat, and kicked as officers did their best to restrain me. Paramedics arrived and scrambled to inject me with a syringe. Were they poisoning me? When one wasn't enough they shot me up with another. Only then did I start to let up. I sank into the stretcher, a chemically induced calm putting an end to my nightmare. August 14, 2014 Eleven months later I was in the US District Court of Georgia watching a conversation between Judge Steve Jones and Assistant US Attorney Kim Dammers. It was my sentencing hearing. ". . . Nonetheless, the government thinks that this is in fact a just sentence. Mr. Davis has a substantial history of violence in the past. He has an aggravated assault in 2005 that's in paragraph twenty-nine in the presentence report, a battery that was also a probation--" "I saw that," said Judge Jones. "--in paragraph thirty-three. He has an aggravated assault pending in paragraph thirty-eight." "I saw that." "And of course there was the murder in DeKalb County that he was charged with but never brought to an indictment. And then there was also a battery in Henry County where the victims were unwilling to come forward. Reading between the lines, you could fairly say--" "Violence." "So given that, the government was not willing to enter in a low end of the guideline range. It's only two months' difference. It was more a matter of principle than anything, but I think thirty-nine months is a significant enough sentence for Mr. Davis to understand the seriousness of the offense." A few minutes later Judge Jones was ready to make it official. But before he handed down my punishment, he had some words for me. "Mr. Davis, again, I want to explain to you why I'm accepting this binding thirty-nine months' confinement. You have a serious offense here. Possession of a firearm by a convicted felon is a serious offense and I think in looking at the 3553(a) factors, I have to take that into consideration, the history and characteristics of the defendant, and also deterrence. You are not supposed to have a firearm. I also look at the overall record and looking at everything--the factors and the presentence report--I find this to be an appropriate and reasonable sentence under the circumstances. Now, the sentence you are going to receive, the rest of it I'm going to tell you about in a minute . . . "You are still a young man. You still have a full life in front of you. From what I've been told by my nieces and nephews, you have a very famous life. But I'm an old man and I've seen a lot of things in these years and I've seen a lot of famous people lose out in life. And I won't go down the list. I'm sure your lawyers can tell you who they are. I've seen a lot of famous athletes, a lot of famous people in music, movie stars. If they continue--if you continue down the track you continue down, you are going to be like a lot of them. You are going to wake up one morning broke. You are going to wake up one morning back in prison again. Or worse, you're not going to wake up at all one morning. "You have a talent. Again I apologize, I'm still a Four Tops guy. It's hard to keep up. I've been trying to find out more things. According to my nieces and nephews you have a great career in front of you. You've got a prison term that you've got to do and after that you are still a young man. You can do a lot if you abide by and follow the law. "The law applies to everybody. No matter who you are, what you do, the law applies to you. It applies to me. It applies to Ms. Dammers. It applies to the agents. To your attorneys Mr. Findling, Mr. Singer-Capek. Everybody in this room. You follow it, and again from what I've been told you have a lot you can get done." Thirty-nine months. No surprises there. I'd agreed to it as part of a plea deal I'd accepted back in May. While the judge, Ms. Dammers, and my lawyers went on to review the terms of my confinement and probation period, I started doing the math. A calculation I'd made a thousand times since they offered me that plea deal. Thirty-nine months. I'd already served eleven, so that meant twenty-eight more. I could handle twenty-eight. Maybe only twenty-four if they let me serve the end of it on house arrest. Drew seemed certain we could make that happen. Twenty-four months. Two more years. Three total. Give or take a few, thirty-nine months was about the amount of time I'd already spent locked up over the course of my life to date. But that time had been spread out over a series of different bids. Thirty-nine months straight up wasn't going to be easy. But I could get through it. And when I got out I'd still have some time to make things right. When I did come home I'd have to start moving a different way. I was getting another chance but this was the last one. They were making an example out of me this time. Next time they were throwing away the key. No room to make the same mistakes. Good. Things had to be different this time. I'd already started making changes. But I wasn't done. If I really wanted to start fresh I was going to have to find closure with everything that landed me here. Maybe I could do that in twenty-four months. Talking about my life has not been easy. It's been that way for a long time, really ever since I caught that murder charge right as I was getting my start in the rap game. I remember walking out of DeKalb County Jail the day I made bond and seeing the line of reporters waiting for me. I wondered how long they would follow me. I wondered how long the events of that night would follow me. That was such a strange time. I hated doing interviews. I'd try to keep my composure but inside I'd be festering, fuming that people were putting me in a situation where I had to speak on things that were the last things I wanted to speak about. I'd tell myself to give them the benefit of the doubt. That these were journalists doing their jobs. That they didn't know how fucked up it was to ask me those questions. That they weren't trying to disrespect me. Still, I always felt disrespected. Over the years I tried to numb those feelings, to forget them, to pretend they didn't bother me. Didn't work. There are some things in life you can never completely walk away from, as badly as you might want to. But I could try to make peace with all that had happened. And a lot had happened. Ups, downs, and all that led up to those ups and downs. "Mr. Davis, is there anything you want to say before I sentence you?" Judge Jones said, bringing my attention back into his courtroom. "Anything you want to present?" "I just want to first say that--" "Stand up, please," he interrupted. I stood up. "I want to say that I thank you and I definitely don't want to withdraw my plea. I just thank you for your time." "Okay. Thank you, Mr. Davis." Excerpted from The Autobiography of Gucci Mane by Gucci Mane, Neil Martinez-Belkin All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.