Contents:
Part one. Growing up the hard way. An oasis of love ; An indecent proposal ; Playing with fire ; He ain't heavy ; The salvation of sports ; Looking for a little relief ; My two selves ; The drug business ; Hurting myself -- Part two. Trying to build a better life. Moving out, moving on, moving back ; Falling in love ; Go west ; Getting married ; Country John Saunders ; Chasing a new dream ; Making it in Moncton ; Bright lights, big city ; Big man in Baltimore ; A family of my own ; The worldwide leader ; Our sister ; Livin' in America -- Part three. The façade cracks. The psych ward ; Dr. Dangerous ; Falling backward ; Scaling Mt. Sinai ; Learning to walk ; A high-stakes stroll in the park ; Ready for prime time? ; Testing, testing -- Part four. Collision course. The damage of Doctor Dangerous revealed ; Let the bad times roll ; Stumbling toward unhappiness ; A day in the doldrums ; Peering over the Tappan Zee Bridge ; Back to the bridge ; Crunch time ; You've got to admit it's getting better ; Jimmy V, Dickie V, and cardio V ; Learning the best lesson.